Just to warn you, this is a rant, it is totally irrational and completely hormonal and I know it sounds like I am a spoiled brat. I'm just venting that is all.
I am now officially feeling like I will be pregnant forever. I feel like this is karma or something making up for what a great pregnancy I have had so far. Seriously. I really had no morning sickness beyond a little nausea, I haven't been all that uncomfortable, no really bad aches and pains to speak of, my swelling has been minimal, and I've honestly loved being pregnant... until now. Now I am ready to have Sam and my body is playing the meanest tricks on me. Every night since Thursday I have had regular contractions. Thursday night and Friday night they were every fifteen minutes, unfortunately these aren't the right contractions for me to have him. They are just braxton hicks, so funny since they are everything they say real contractions are supposed to be--except the pain factor. There is no pain, just my stomach gets extremely hard and tight, and I feel like I can't breathe for about 1 minute, then they go away. They are strong too, strong enough to make me lose my breath and have a hard time speaking through them. They are regular, they are consistent. I kept a record last night and they were coming on the dot every 7 minutes for two hours straight. By the time I went to bed it was every 15 minutes for the next 3 hours. But still, no pain besides a twinge here and there. Makes for a really horrible night sleep and I have probably gotten about 8 hours of sleep total for the last 3 days. So that adds to my wonderful mood lately.
My hospital bag is laughing at me too. I get in the car, see Sam's car seat and my bag sitting so innocently next to it and I just get so annoyed I want to take it out and put everything away because I feel like it's a waste of good clothes for it to just sit there in the back seat waiting for what could potentially be another two weeks. Not to mention that EVERY DAY that I go into work I get the: "You're still here? Aren't you going to have that baby?" I really would like to punch these people in the face when they say this, seriously, because if it were my choice I would have had him by now!
I know he's going to come when he's ready, and I know that the contractions I'm having are doing something to my body at least to make it ready for that day that finally does decide to make his appearance, but seriously, I wish I were one of those women who never notice their braxton hicks contractions, who feel totally fine until the day they actually go into labor, because this back and forth thing I've got going, not knowing whether this is the real thing or just another trick my body wants to play on me, is what's driving me nuts. I think I could handle being pregnant for another two weeks if it weren't for these evil braxton hicks contractions.
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