Sadness...

One of the surprising things about being a Mother is the way things in the world affect you. It completely changes your way of thinking about things. Recently Colorado has been the victim of so many tragedies, a wildfire that burned down almost 350 homes and killed two people, leaving my beautiful city covered in ash and a mountainside left with nothing but the black stumps of what were once trees, and a shooting that left 71 people either killed or wounded...

A part of me wants to hide away in my house with my babies so that I can always make sure they are safe. But I know that's not possible or healthy and I know that I won't always be there to protect them. Now that I have children of my own tragedies like these hit me much harder then before. I think about all those people who were there that day, I think about their Mother's and what they are feeling right now... I think about their children and how they are affected... I think about how those people who survived are going to be functioning... It is much easier to put myself in their shoes and feel their sadness, their anger, their fear.

I know that I won't always be there to protect my children... but while I am able I will always do whatever I can to protect them, while making sure they can also experience the world. It's a fine line parent's have to walk... to make sure they are safe but also not holding them back from growing. Being a parent is just not easy sometimes. .

My thoughts, prayers, and love go out to all who have been affected by these recent tragedies...