3 weeks old

Ella is 3 weeks old as of Friday, I can't believe that much time has gone by already! It's kind of a surreal feeling, it feels like just yesterday that I was giant and pregnant and then going through labor... but at the same time, it feels like Ella has always been in our lives. That's the thing about having kids, once they are born you can barely remember life without them.

Things have been going pretty smoothly since she was born. Thankfully my recovery has been minimal, in fact I have felt 100% since a few days after she was born. This has been amazing compared to Sam's birth where it was a few weeks before I was back to feeling semi-decent. It's made things very easy on me when it comes to Sam.

Ella so far is doing great, she eats very well and breastfeeding is actually working out pretty well for us. Granted I don't breastfeed all the time, but that was more my choice then anything since she will have to be weaned in a few weeks when I go back to work and it is nice sometimes to be able to hand her off to someone else to feed. She's pretty great and looks at everything and is really good at focusing on faces and she lifts her head really well for a 3 week old. I am actually thinking about moving her into her own room already. We were going to wait till she was older, but I'm thinking it will be easier with her in her own room. Sam hasn't woken up ever due to her crying (even when we're in her room, since I take her in there in the middle of the night sometimes so we don't wake AJ,) and I'm thinking that it will be easier on me if she's in her own room. It won't be as tempting to just put her in bed with us. As easy as it is just to put her in the bed with us, it makes me so nervous and I can't sleep properly. I wake up extremely stiff and usually with a headache. I moved Sam to his room at 5 weeks old, so that may be when we make the move. Surprisingly I'm enjoying all the little girl stuff and putting her in cute outfits with bows and everything. It's been pretty fun so far, just as fun as it is to dress Sam in his cute little outfits. 

Sam has been great with her so far. He calls her: "my baby" when we talk about her and is constantly loving on her and hugging her. I love watching him with her and I'm so very happy that all my anxiety was for nothing. He hasn't been jealous or acting out or anything like that, which is what I was worried about originally. He's been pretty great actually besides the occasional tantrum, but that's just his 2 year old self, lol.

I'm really not looking forward to going back to work in the next little while, but I know that I have to. I'll just miss my babies. I'm worried about the shift bid coming up too and concerned I'll have to work a night shift. AJ and I have talked about it and agreed that we will do what we have to to make it work. We'll just have to see what happens.

Other than that, life has been amazing, I love my little girl and my big boy.