How big is baby?: 19.75 Inches, 6.8 lbs (though it is my feeling that she is more like 20+ inches and 8+ lbs right now... I say this because her movements actually hurt now. And I can feel her feet up in my ribs at the same time I feel her head in my crotch... not very comfortable.)
Food cravings?: not really craving any food right now.
What I'm looking forward to: Being done being pregnant, getting to meet this little girl finally.
Milestone: Not really much milestones happening anymore. She's all developed and ready to come out.
Sleep?: Ha ha ha, what sleep?
Best moment this week?: Hearing at my Dr's appointment that I am 2 cm dilated already.
Feelings this week?: Frustration like I have never felt before. I look back at my blog entries with Sam and how frustrated I was about the whole thing, but that is NOTHING compared to this time. I thank God that I'm done having babies. Don't get me wrong, I love the whole pregnancy experience, except for the second and last months. With Sam I had to deal with some braxton hicks contractions and not dilating until the last minute. Contractions were a good 15 minutes apart though with no pain. With this little girl, I know I am dilated to 2 already, and for the last 3 nights I have been up anywhere from 2-5 hours with consistent contractions happening every 3-5 minutes and painful enough that I can't sleep through them. I really thought last night was it, since they were getting progressively closer together... but then it's like it bottomed out at 3 minutes in between and stuck there with no change for an hour until 5 when it decided it was time to stop. You know I wouldn't mind being pregnant for the next 2 weeks until my due date, but this is so frustrating I just can't handle it. I had a mini breakdown this morning when they stopped again. It's very emotionally draining to sit there thinking that this might be time, only for it NOT to be time. (At 5 am after I had been up since 1 am.) The most frustrating thing about this, is there's really nothing I can do. We've tried all the wives tales about what's supposed to induce labor from home, hasn't worked really. The Dr stripped my membranes, that didn't do anything. (OR I don't know, maybe that is the cause of all this false labor crap.) I just need one of two things to happen here: One: my obvious preference would be to go into labor officially and have Ella like today... or Two: This false labor needs to stop so I can continue working until she is born and if that means I have to be pregnant for another 2 weeks, whatever, I would much rather stay pregnant then have to deal with these nightly incursions into my sleep.
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