Well it has been two days since I have been back at work, it hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be. I really miss my little man, but it has been nice to get out of the house and have some adult time. I realized yesterday that this is something that I can do and will be better for us in the long run, not just financially but for several reasons... It will give AJ some time to bond with Sam and form a strong relationship, which is really good for them both. It will give Sam a chance to bond with the rest of the family too since he will be with family on the days AJ and I are working. I think it will make me a better Mom too, I get to go to work and be with other adults and then when my shift ends, I'm so excited to get home and be with my son, and I think that makes me put in about 150% of my effort and time. I just wish that I could cut my schedule by like 8 hours, that would be ideal, but I don't know whether I will be able to do that without a medical reason. So I am looking at a 4 am shift right now, I know that it is early, but it is a ten hour shift, (not sure what the days would be yet, and that might be a deal breaker.) so I would be working 4 am -3 pm and that means I'll get 3 days off a week and be off by midafternoon so I still get to spend lots of time with Sam, I figure I will be able to get him on a schedule where he takes a nap from like 4-5 so that I can get a little sleep and we'll be awake when AJ get home. I'm not sure about it yet though, I'm going to see what 5 am and 6 am shifts are available before I make any decisions, and we won't know the shifts for a few weeks.
All in all it hasn't been too bad being at work. Of course I'd love to be home with Sam, but since I have to be here, I'm making the best of the situation. Now I just have to be a little impatient until my shift ends.
I totally agree about working. I was a SAHM when I had my 2nd daughter and I chose to return to work. It was a good thing in the long run because Jeremy got laid off for a long period of time, but at the time it was purely a choice. I absolutely love and adore my children, but I like to have that adult time. It is nice to be able to interact with adults for longer than 2 minutes without having a child interrupt me or have to go get my 3 yr old from whatever trouble she created. LOL
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