Absolutely Thrilled

Yesterday AJ and I had our first Prenatal Appointment. We were both terrified as we've had a previous loss and we didn't have any idea of what to expect. Dr. Skiles, (who is so awesome by the way,) came in the room and just immediately started with an ultrasound. It took her about 2 seconds and she found our little bean. They had to zoom in because it's still early, but we were able to see the tiny heartbeat fluttering away. AJ said it looked like a little butterfly. I was so in awe of it that I couldn't even cry! (Don't worry, I did that in the car afterwards, lol) She double-checked and there was only one (whew!) since there was some speculation that there could be more because of the fertility meds I was on. Afterwards, AJ just had this light in his eyes that I have never seen before. He is very excited, I could tell that by the way he was looking at the ultrasound, and at me. Unfortunately we didn't get a picture because we were on the portable ultrasound machine. Next time I'll bring my camera just in case we do another ultrasound with that machine again. The Dr. gave me my due date as July 28th! My next appointment is January 5th, and I can't wait for that since I will almost be out of the first trimester. I will breathe a major sigh of relief when that date passes. Now that I know that things are going smoothly right now, I feel like I have all this excitement in me! I'm still afraid to let it out yet because we are not completely out of the woods, though there is light at the end of the tunnel. Plus I am much sicker this time than I was with my loss, so I feel like things are progressing nicely. (Funny that I should be happy about being sick, lol.)

Other than that, I got some interesting news yesterday. My little brother (who is 17) accidentally got his girlfriend pregnant. She is due on August 3rd. They also had an ultrasound yesterday. (I didn't find out about this until after my appointment.) I'm not sure how I feel about this. I'm very disapointed in my brother because he should have thought about the consequences of his actions, but mostly I am sad for him, I don't think he realizes that his days of running around and being stupid are over now, they HAVE to be over. He has to grow up and he has to do it in the next eight months.

Well anyways, besides that drama, I am exhausted lately and my house is showing it. It is a mess right now and I just don't have the energy to clean it. It's just cluttered more than dirty. I do manage to keep the kitchen clean and the dishes done. It's just all the clutter everywhere else and all the dirty clothes I need to wash... I'm definately ready for my energy back. Well I had better go tackle some of that housework while I have the energy to do it and before I get start to feel queasy!