Emotions, emotions...

So... the last few days, I have been a ball of mood swings and emotions. An unpleasent symptom since I'm already emotional as it is, AJ probably thinks I'm crazy. I have okay days and some days I just get so upset at all the little things. (Which makes me a B-I-T-C-H.) And commercials, commercials make me cry, especially since it's the holidays and they are all sappy, lol.

Other than that, some things are improving, I seem to have more energy. My nausea has subsided so it's only there every once in a while, and it's not as severe. I do have heartburn a lot though, that seems to have replaced the morning sickness, and I get headaches more frequently now, and I have problems with my arms and legs falling asleep really easily, which can cause problems when I'm sleeping. But all in all, I'm starting to feel better. Ready to get my fully energy back! I cleaned house the other day and I forgot how much I love a clean house, so I'm ready for the energy to come back so I can do that. Ready to start really showing and look preggo. Though because I have extra padding probably won't be for a while...

My next appointment is only a week away and I'm REALLY looking forward to it. I hope they do another ultrasound because it should look more like a baby and less like a squish by then. If all goes well at that appointment I'm going to make the official announcement to the extended family. And then after that my next BIG appointment will be in March to find out what it is!! I'm starting to get really excited about all this, I will be in double digits tomorrow finally (10 weeks) and I will breathe a small sigh of relief. The big sigh will be at our next appointment and then on Jan 13th when I'm officially out of the first trimester!

All in all, I am very happy right now and things are going well. I had a great Christmas and got to spend a lot of time with friends and family. The holiday's really remind me how blessed I am. :-D

Scary Day

Hey Everyone.
Today was a scary day. No worries because everything is fine, but it was very frightening for the time being. Around 8:30-9:00 I went to the bathroom and there was some brown spotting when I wiped. Looking exactly as it looked last time I had my loss. Naturally I FREAKED out because I thought it was going to be the same horrible situation. I called my Dr and they got me in for an ultrasound right away. I went in at 10:00. They did the ultrasound and everything was perfect. As soon as I saw that beautiful heartbeat I almost lost it. They measured everything and our peanut is growing right on track 8 weeks 5 days. The heartrate was measured at 163 BPM. Which they said is a good strong heartbeat. I was lucky enough to get an ultrasound picture for this one. And if you look really close you can see the little nubs for hands and feet. It's amazing how much it has grown in just two weeks. At my last appointment it was much smaller.




So the good thing that came out of all the stress was that I got a picture of the baby this time! And I'm feeling a lot better. Unfortunately they couldn't explain the spotting except to say that because it's brown, it is old blood, not a new bleed. There was nothing going on in there that would have caused the bleeding, so they think it was implantation bleeding working it's way out, and that because right now is when I would have gotten my period if I wasn't pregnant they think that's why its flushing out now. So anyways, I'm feeling better and my next appointment is on Jan 5th!

Sick and Happy.

I knew the mysterious dissapearance of my morning sickness was too good to be true. It returned today in full-force and I've been clutching my stomach and gagging all day. Luckily no puking so there's a plus side... plus the morning sickness is a reassurance that all is going well with our little bean. It does seems to hit at inopportune times though, I was going to clean house today, but no such luck. Maybe tomorrow.

The last few days has brought a sort of peace about the whole thing, up until now I have been incredibly nervous and stressed about it. But the past few days I noticed I am letting myself fall in love with this baby more and more everyday. I talk to my belly all the time and I know I must sound nuts, lol.

Well anyway, beyond that I gave Heather my fertility moniter to use since I won't need it and she finally got a Peak reading today meaning that she is finally ovulating! Yay! I'm so happy for her, I know how frustrating trying to conceive can be and getting that positive telling you that yes, you are ovulating after months of NOT can be almost as emotional as finding out that you are pregnant. If she's pregnant this time around she will find out on Christmas.

Life is just happy all around. :-D

Exhausted

Well, I feel like I've been hit by a freight train of exhaustion. I thought that I was tired the first few weeks, but it is nothing compared to this. I feel like I need to sleep constantly. And I'm having a hard time sleeping at night... the one plus is that my nausea has subsided slightly, or I am just getting used to it. I still get nauseous every once in a while, but heartburn is there more often now. And I am hungry all the time. I was worried about losing the nausea at first, but I seem to have gained some other more uncomfortable symptoms instead... and some symptoms that are just fricken wierd. Last night I was reading a book and my fingers went numb on both hands. They wouldn't wake back up either, I couldn't sleep I was so freaked out. I called my sister and talked to some other moms and they told me it's normal and it's because of fluid retention on the nerves in the hands. I actually googled it and found that it can be a version of carpel tunnel that happens in pregnancy. So I will probably have to look into getting extra breaks during my workday if my hands start hurting at work.

Other than that not much else going on. Just trying to sludge through the next four weeks until I start to get my energy back.

Absolutely Thrilled

Yesterday AJ and I had our first Prenatal Appointment. We were both terrified as we've had a previous loss and we didn't have any idea of what to expect. Dr. Skiles, (who is so awesome by the way,) came in the room and just immediately started with an ultrasound. It took her about 2 seconds and she found our little bean. They had to zoom in because it's still early, but we were able to see the tiny heartbeat fluttering away. AJ said it looked like a little butterfly. I was so in awe of it that I couldn't even cry! (Don't worry, I did that in the car afterwards, lol) She double-checked and there was only one (whew!) since there was some speculation that there could be more because of the fertility meds I was on. Afterwards, AJ just had this light in his eyes that I have never seen before. He is very excited, I could tell that by the way he was looking at the ultrasound, and at me. Unfortunately we didn't get a picture because we were on the portable ultrasound machine. Next time I'll bring my camera just in case we do another ultrasound with that machine again. The Dr. gave me my due date as July 28th! My next appointment is January 5th, and I can't wait for that since I will almost be out of the first trimester. I will breathe a major sigh of relief when that date passes. Now that I know that things are going smoothly right now, I feel like I have all this excitement in me! I'm still afraid to let it out yet because we are not completely out of the woods, though there is light at the end of the tunnel. Plus I am much sicker this time than I was with my loss, so I feel like things are progressing nicely. (Funny that I should be happy about being sick, lol.)

Other than that, I got some interesting news yesterday. My little brother (who is 17) accidentally got his girlfriend pregnant. She is due on August 3rd. They also had an ultrasound yesterday. (I didn't find out about this until after my appointment.) I'm not sure how I feel about this. I'm very disapointed in my brother because he should have thought about the consequences of his actions, but mostly I am sad for him, I don't think he realizes that his days of running around and being stupid are over now, they HAVE to be over. He has to grow up and he has to do it in the next eight months.

Well anyways, besides that drama, I am exhausted lately and my house is showing it. It is a mess right now and I just don't have the energy to clean it. It's just cluttered more than dirty. I do manage to keep the kitchen clean and the dishes done. It's just all the clutter everywhere else and all the dirty clothes I need to wash... I'm definately ready for my energy back. Well I had better go tackle some of that housework while I have the energy to do it and before I get start to feel queasy!